I shouldn't be blogging.
I'm in uni because the internet at home is down and I need to do my last assignment.
But if you've been paying attention, I blog the most when I shouldn't.
I talked to an old friend recently. And she told me she got married. For someone like her, all she's ever wanted in life was to get married and have children. I could never understand that, I always thought girls like that were plain stupid. Most times we laugh at people who have dreams like that. You know, modern women should have ambition and all that.
But how stupid is it? At least for my friend, her dreams did come true.
For the rest of us, we chase things like wealth, fame, and power. Things that sound pretty good. We want a big house like so and so, we want a lot of designer stuff like so and so. We give up the things we enjoy doing to pursue things that promise us a "bright future" or things like that. What is that bright future? What is that all about?
Define that. A big house? A flashy car? A lot of bling? So say you spend all your life slaving away doing something you hate, and then you bitch about your life, your boss, and how much you hate doing this job. But you do it anyway, and you do it for the rest of your life because it makes you a lot of money. I know people like that, I'm not making it up. And then what? Retire at 55 and then use all that money to do what? By 55 you would have spent 3 decades of your life making all your money. I guess you could spend it all for the next 3 decades, if you have another three, that is.
What if the chasing never ends?
I don't know, you tell me. I hope my chasing ends at some point in this lifetime, and I don't get stuck doing something I hate at any point in life.
Sometimes conversations with the most unlikely people make you trackback and reflect on your life a little. A lot of times when old friends try to get me on FB chat, I tend to ignore because I'm too busy doing other things. My friend kept trying to tell me she was getting married, and I only found out after seeing the photos on FB. This reminds me of a bad habit I need to change. Most times I take a lot of people for granted, mostly friends, by not bothering to keep in touch. Being not interested in people's lives, it's a weakness.
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Thinking of posting up photography on a separate blog. Perhaps that'd make me more inspired to practice since I have to keep updating it. But I really suck in maintaining blogs. Hmm.. Should I?
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Classmates just passed by and asked if I'm going to Penang with them in January. But I think I'll have to pass, must save money for other purposes ahems.
I'm also putting off going home because I dread carrying my laptop.
xoxo.
My new <3
Oh my hair looks good here. My Mum looks so tired these days T.T
We didn't do much, just went to buy a cake and invite loved ones over. It's an Oreo cake, not bad. In another three years I swear we'll eat at some posh restaurant and it's all going to be on me. Yes I hate feeling helpless.
Traditional red eggs for birthdays, a must.
With all my cousins! All those living in Kuantan, at least. And no, I don't think I'm too blonde. I feel orange instead.
Coco wants to join in the fun too.
But she can't, so she sulks.
Er the only reason I uploaded this is because my legs look skinny here. There, a rare picture where you can see my teeth.
I always love family photos because they are rare. Bebe is standing in for my brother who forgot his mother's birthday -___-"
Despite not being able to give her a proper celebration, I'm glad that at least I can be back to celebrate with the whole family. I won't be here for Dad's :(
Mum's present that I shared with sis. I hope it's good!
Which reminds me, during Mom's birthday last year I was this thin. Like stick-thin. Oh motivation where are you when I need you.
